ADDICTED...!!

People say I am "addicted"...I say why should not I be?Is it wrong to think for yourself?Is it wrong to think of staying happy?Is it wrong to think of achieving goals and living LIFE fully?God says,"You got to try harder and still harder..."I ask,"Am I not?"Am I not trying hard enough?Am I not trying to fulfill my commitments?Am I not trying for others' sake and making ends just meet?Am I not COMPROMISING??What and where am I doing wrong?Nobody replies!! They leave me confused and pondering...And then they say,"You are addicted!"I ask,"Guys, do you really think I am?"....

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WHEN TIME JUST FLIES !!!

I look through the shades of timeAnd see the people turn hazyThe world seems to spin fasterMy eyes turning red and lazyStraight into the darkness I stareHoping to feel that brisk touch of 'rosy glare'But the darkness pulls me deeper...and deeper...Towards a swirl I plungeAnd see myself float in that emptiness..No word pops out of my mouth..But I so much want to scream and cry!!!Who should I blame for what has comeMy father had always said every blow to welcome...But this plight of mine is my own;And this symphony of fate and epilogue is all I remain...Can I just forget who and what I used to be?Am only human, after all, you see..Hurts it much...

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I MISS U..!!

I want to say I'm sorry for many reasons left unsaidI want to say I miss you and the life that we once ledI want to be forgiven and forgive myself as wellI want to hold my head up high and no longer sit and dwellHow do you learn to love yourself after perfecting self-hate?I want to shout ' I miss you so' yet knowing I'm too lateSo much time has already passed but one thing remainsThe thought of you brings warmth to me and that will never changeWe all make mistakes in life, Lord knows I've made a fewPlease know that doesn't change the fact I truly cared for youThe love we shared may have been brief, and now it's just our pastBut the impact that...

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I TRY...

I try to be friendswith someone else,And that person is me;Cause every time I try to be friends,They always push me away,So being my friend is betterthan being friends with you,At least I now What a truefriend is;It's not you.....

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WHY M I HERE??

I lay in bed alone at night and wonder why I'm here.I do so much for everyoneWhy don't they show they care?There is so much hurt I feel, so much anger trapped inside.I have no one to talk toThese drugs seem to be the only wayTurns out it's a lie just like the smile I put on each and everyday.I know outside I'm smiling, It's the face I fake for you,But inside my soul is crying and there is nothing I can do.I know my family loves me,I'm there when their decisions are poor.I'm sick of feeling like this walked on rug thrown upon the floor.I lay in bed and wonder what the hell I'm doing hereCan I wake up from this dream?Can I please just disappe...

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I WANNA CRY :(

I never stopped to realizeHow lonely I would beI never thought this day would comeWhen I'd grow tired of "ME"Your voice was never sweeterThan the day I said goodbyeYou'll never know how much it hurtBecause I'm too big to cryIf I knew then what I know nowYou'd still be kissing meInstead there's fate's lipsWhere mine used to beYou never looked so wonderfulAs the day fate made me walk awayI used to say, "I love you"But that I could not sayI can't forget you darlin'No matter how much I tryYou'll never know how much it hurtBecause I'm too big to ...

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I AM SORRY:(

I'm sorry for everything you've been throughIt must've been very hard on youI'm sorry for all that's been said and doneI was the moon, you were the sunI'm sorry for not making everything rightBut the situation I was in, was very tightI'm sorry for not lending you a handIf only I could be better I'm sorry if it seemed like I didn't careI'm sorry for breaking your heartFor forgiveness, where do I sta...

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THE GIFT SILENCE GAVE

An introvert, by nature, as I amMy silent heartbeats you heardAnd when your tender and heavenly arms you spread...The touch of warmth I felt When all I could see and hear was my lonely spiritGave me the strength to rise up and walk And that was the dayWhen my Silence gifted me your soul of lifeAnd I did realize how blessed I wasAnd who I really wa...

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