Maula Mere Le Le Meri Jaan

Khuda se maine poocha
Aye mere maula, mujhe itna tanha kyun banaya
Na usne kuch kaha... na mujhe kuch sunayi diya

Ruh se bilap ke bas ek aah nikli
Zindagi mayus, yeh jahan mayus
Mayus hum aur mayus tum

Khali karwate hi reh gayi hain
Silwate bhi na yeh jati hain
Bas hum unhe aur woh hame dekhte hain

Royi si meri ankhein hain
Is zaalim sitam se murjhayi hain
Yeh zakhm aur ghao bhi na bharte hain

Os ki bunde bhi na marham bani
Na hi woh raat ki chandni
Bas hain akele hum aur yeh hamari tanhayi

Rote ko to dekha hai usne
Dil ka rona na dikha usko
Jab woh hi nahi to kya karein gila aur kya karein sikwa

Zanzeeron se hi bandha he ye ruh
Yeh shaam ka chirag bhi aya bujhne ko
Zubaan phir bhi kuch na bole na samjha paye bhi usko

Apni nazron se to gira diya tune
Ab khud se na kar juda
Noor to main kal bhi tha aaj bhi hun tera

Shikwe to bahut kar liye tujhse
Nazre mila bhi li jhuka bhi li
Barsa de teri rehmat thodi
Jo ban jaun main tera ya ho jaye bas tu mera

Aye khuda, karde riha mujhe
Karishma dikha apni inayat ki
Agar hai tu abhi aur tha kabhi
Bana de mujhe insaan ya mila le apni kaynat se

Bas yehi iltiza he meri
Thodi rehem barsa de apne bande pe
Ya mila de use apni tabassum se!!

Aye khuda..
Bas yehi iltiza he ... bas yehi iltiza he...  

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Who is it - ME or YOU?

The most beautiful things of nature...
Are never together.....
And so perhaps, we too,
Are meant to be...


Blessed are we or,
Cursed is our love.....
I know not,
And neither does she..

My eyes are torn
My rheum has dried.....
My heart a barren waste...
My life, a aimless goal..


My smile has faded....
I want to cry and cry...
Forever and ever.... until my heart bursts...
Unable to control the sorrow it holds..


It feels ages since I left.....
Though only hours have only swept..........
Her scent still lingers over me....
Like she lives in my every breath..

True was the warmth in her arms...
And the touch of her rosy wet lips..
Yet I cherish these 'dreams' now..
Though painful and sweet!


I have no complaints but one.
I have no regrets but one..


Why was it us?
Why was it us?


My heart chides me bad..
I know not what to say....
The only question that each passing moment throws..
Running dear, from who r thou?


With a sheepish wimp,
And a wry smile...
I try to satisfy my heart,
"It is YOU..and only YOU..!!"


"But how can you run?
Not from me. Never, my dear!
She is not me not even love..
But all she is the WHOLE OF YOU !!",
It stabs me deeper and brutal...
And its words just shell me more..


"So how can you run.....
When it is not me, not her
But YOU, YOU and only YOU!"

"What one heart said to another"

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I Wish

Life is a series of fights and disillusionment

Tears roll down my cheek unseen

Ghosts from past haunting

Ripping my insides apart

Stabbing me with the unforeseen ..

Why was I so? Why was the time such?

These seem to be pretty vague now!!

When all i see is the dark ahead

And the dark still lurks behind ..

The cries of my past piercing me

Blood draining from my eyes

My ears have become deaf

And my breath become stale ..

Every moment the same pain

And every day the sun down

The night seems unending,

And the stars too seem to be misleading ..                            

The moon silently gazes

The dark clouds seem to smile

Even they seem to cherish

In seeing me fail the extra mile ..

My life has come to a halt

No idea where it leads

And now my blood filled heart

Envies every single breath I take ..

The times have passed

When the cheerful lad smiled

And all that is left now

Is the cold of the setting sun ..

The smile has become fake

Even the eyes lost their shine

The lips start to quiver

Thinking, mention of truth would be a crime ..

The glass that was once full

Is always empty now

And even when the times so elegantly changed

It has stopped changing itself ..

They say, like else it too will pass

And hope I do it does

But the hands of the clock just stay still

And the darkness prevails and grows ..

Looking back, all I have

Is me filled with faults

And its true to say

Time does not give a second chance ..!!

Those who I have hurt

Never seem to leave me or go

But the strength that once within dwell

Even that too is incapable to show ..

Every single step of mine

Has pulled me down

And now the pinnacle seems so high

My feet fall weak and tremble ..

The dream was to reach the sky

And yes, that I surely have

For even after all of this

The tyrants above just mock and smile ..

Life would have been so easy

Had I cared for me less

But still seeing my shadow from the past 

I still do find me in the dirtiest mess ..

I wish I was not a monster

To have brutally murdered so many hopes

But their spirits now haunt me

And my courage and esteem just more and more drops ..

Had my heart been my lips

And my lips could see

My lips, with pain would have screamed                                                                              

While my eyes stayed wet and zipped ..

But wishes don't help me now

Neither do they stop the ghosts

All I am left with now

Is me and me all alone ..

Make me a monster I did

But now please, let me be me

Because the night has to pass

And the sun has to rise ..

And that is all, what now I WISH ..!! 

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Confused?? It's Complicated !

 

Its said relations are the blessings in disguise for mankind. But has anyone ever wondered what is it we are blessed with. No one does!! And you are right too. Practicality and sane thinking would not let anyone with the required spare time to start this analysis. But if, for once, we can pull ourselves up to see what lies underneath, and not just turn madly and irrationally into speeding machines which are timed for sleep, programmed for love, we might find ourselves not enough happy and knee deep in a stressful responsibilities of so many relations that you might start fearing them.

Now let me ask one thing, people are married, in love, in relation and the list goes on and on and on, right? But what after that? Till you are without someone special in your life, you claim to be single. Then suddenly one day lightning strikes and you are swayed back to your dreamy and mistral ambiance of romantic enchantments, and you start claiming to be in a relationship.

If after, someone ditches you, then you get thrown back. You feel life hit you so hard you could never get up. But we forget the main essence of life that it is build to hit and hit so hard that you can and will realize that after all the day's hard wok, all you are still human!! 

What happens when someone dies - you, your friend, your relatives, your wife, family. Do you still remain in a relation. People get divorced, separated and their relations change. people die and relation change. people marry and relations change. All we understand in this world right now is how relations change and the best way to put these feelings into expressive words is RELATIONSHIP STATUS. 

Frankly speaking, here comes the twist. "Relationship Status". Two simple words - taken straight from the dictionary are capable of putting the entire human urge of feelings and desire in a clear sight. Isn't it just amazing how these two simple yet crazy words, which once were so not used are literally so much in fashion that every third person uses it and the language used to express is just as simple as asking a person, "Hey buddy, what's your name?". Very similar. Just notice the slight change - "Hey, what's your status?". 

Friends, English is such a wonderful language that you can find a word for almost anything. These two small insignificantly significant words have not only tried to bind all the relations but also help us understand them better, as to what fits where.

But are we machines? Don't we need to ask ourselves how can every single feeling, every attachment you have to an entity - be it living or dead - can be just squeezed and fit into these two words. It cant. Nothing can. If it can, then what would be the status of a person who has recently lost his family. God did not create this massive galaxy of relations we tend to, just to be put in two simple words. he just didn't. If he would have then perhaps the simplest yet toughest language that man could have ever attempted to learn would have been the Language of Love.

Death is not the greatest loss you see, the greatest loss is losing a relation while your heart is alive!!

Confused.. So am I and therefore I have gladly accepted the truth that mine is 'Complicated'..!!

Have you asked yourself what's yours??

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Ssilence echoes: I TRIED.....I SPOKE.....BUT THE SILENCE PREVAILED

Ssilence echoes: I TRIED.....I SPOKE.....BUT THE SILENCE PREVAILED: "I wondered wat went wrong, coz u left wen i needed the most. It wasn't ma fault, not urs either and so I tried..... I spoke..... but the..."

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WILL LOVE WIN ??

Mujhe khuda ne kaha

"Mat kar intezar, is janam mein milna muskil hai...."

Maine bhi keh diya

"Lene de maza intezar ka, agle janam mein to mumkin hai....."

Fir usne kaha

"Mat kar itna pyar, bahut pachtayega......."

Muskura kar maine kaha

"Dekhte hain, tu kitna meri ruh ko tadpayega....."

Fir usne kaha

"Hata use, chal tujhe jannat ki noor se milata hoon......."

Maine kaha

"Aa niche....

Dekh mere pyar ka muskurata chehra...

Tujhe jannat ki noor bhulat hoon..!!"

Tilmilakar kaha usne

"Mat bhul apni aukad..

Tu hai to ek insan..!!"

Maine kaha

"To fir....

Mila de mujhe mere pyar se..

Aur saabit kar ki tu bhi hai bhagwan...!!"

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